Another Day Numb

I haven't felt like this in a long time.

Probably from the lack of denial, it's just too hard anymore. But, somehow I feel so... nothing. The reaccuring hollowness. I have forgotten nothing, yet I don't feel the pain of it's separation. I don't feel the torture of knowing I could have fixed it, but failing. I feel no depression, and yet no happiness, nor anger. My heart is so calm I can hardly feel it beating. I feel like my eyes have become clouded from reality, and not in a way to hide the truth, only mask it.

Eventually, however, I will be back to normal. Or, however normal that really is. I will wake up tomorrow with every vivid emotion tingling down to my finger-tips, and no matter how destructive, I prefer it.